Weep not for roads untraveled
Weep not for paths left alone
'Cause beyond every bend
Is a long blinding end
It's the worst kind of pain
I've known

Give up your heart left broken
And let that mistake pass on
'Cause the love that you lost
Wasn't worth what it cost
And in time you'll be glad it's gone

Woah-oo-oh-oh
Woah-oo-ohh
Woah-ooh-oh-oh
Woah-oo-ohh

Weep not for roads untraveled
Weep not for sights unseen
May your love never end
And if you need a friend
There's a seat here alongside me

Woah-oo-oh-oh
Woah-oo-ohh
Woah-oo-oh-oh
Woah-oo-oh

Life is too uncertain to have regrets

So I haven't blogged in a while, or been on here at all really.
I spose I should update the etherworld of my doings and shit.

Life's been pretty.. smooth I think is the word I'm looking for, for me these past few months.
There's been limited drama, and none personally for me.
I don't really have that much of a social life anymore but I don't care that much.
I guess it is a bit lonely being able to count my friends on one hand but it's what I wanted and asked for.
And I did get what I wanted.
No drama or bitchiness.

It's been carefree just working, reading and watching tv shows.
Just chilling out and such.

It's given me time to think about the future.
I know what I want to do.
I know how I'm going to get the money I need to get the house, cars, estate and books I want.
I know my plans regarding children or not.
I have my new car Lexi.
Bartholemew I have sold, it was a sad parting but it was time.
I'm working my way to getting a good credit rating to help with the house.
It's good.

I've found a whole nother family at work and I love them to bits.
Especially my work mum, she's gorgeous and means the world to me <3

I guess yeah it's just good.
I've made the start towards the rest of my life,
And I can't freaking wait :D

Sometimes, life is too uncertain to have regrets.

Ooowwww
Ooowwww

Sometimes I feel
Like I wanna leave this place for good
Under the ground
I'll live down there without a sound
And never hear
These hissing voices all the same
I'll disappear
Cause living makes me feel ashamed

Ooowwww
Ooowwww

I must believe
There's more above us and below
I must believe
Stranded with this bitch called hope
It keeps me here
When all I wanna do is go
It keeps me here
When all I wanna do is disappear

If this is it
When all we have and ever will
If this is it
Time is running out and standing still
I'll leave today
Cause there's nothing left to keep me here
I'll fade away
I'll turn my back and disappear

The city moves
Lunges up right from the ground
The seething Earth
It opens up and spits us out
This vicious child
Nature never wanted us
This vicious child
A cancer burning black into its heart

If this is it
When all we have and ever will
If this is it
Time is running out and standing still
I'll leave today
Cause there's nothing left to keep me here
I'll fade away
I'll turn my back and disappear

Ooowwww
Sometimes I feel
Like I wanna leave this place for good
Under the ground
I'll live down there without a sound
And never hear
These hissing voices all the same
I'll disappear
Cause living makes me feel ashamed

If this is it
When all we have and ever will
If this is it
Time is running out and standing still
I'll leave today
Cause there's nothing left to keep me here
I'll fade away
I'll turn my back and disappear
I'll turn my back and disappear

The wound heals but it never does

That's cause you at war with love

You at war with love

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle

Never let a wound ruin me

But i feel like ruins ruin me

Arrow holes they never close 

From cupid on a shootin spree

Feelin stupid cos i know it aint on you and me

But when you're tryin to beat the odds up

And tryin to keep your nodds up

And you know that you should know

And let it go but the fear of the unknown

Another lovers song sends you back into the zone

We know Tom Hanks to bring you home

A lover not a fighter on the front line with a poem

Tryin to write yourself a riffle 

Maybe shoppin up a song to fight the tanks and drones that you 

bringin along

I wish I never looked I wish I never touched

I wish that I could stop lovin you so much

Coz I'm the only one trying to keep us together

When all of the signs say that I should forget her

I wish you weren't the best the best I ever had

I wish that the good outweighed the bad

Coz it'll never be over, until you tell me its over, 

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle

Shouldn't have but you said it

It shouldn't of happened but you let it

Now you're down on the ground screamin medic

The only thing that comes is the post traumatic stress

[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/guy-sebastian-lyrics/battle-scars-lyrics.html -]

Shields body armour and vests 

Don't properly work

That's why you're in a locker full of hurt

The enemy within and all the fire from your friends

The best medicine is probably just to let her win

I wish I couldn't feel

I wish I couldn't love

I wish that I could stop coz it hurts so much

And I'm the only one trying to keep us together

When all of the signs say that I should forget her

I wish you weren't the best the best I ever had

I wish that the good outweighed the bad

Coz it'll never be over, until you tell me it over, 

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle

Cos you set me on fire

I've never felt so alive

No hope and wounds heal but it never does

Thats because you're at war with love

And I'm never gonna break it.

It's impossible to shake it.

You hope the wounds heal but it never does

That's cos you at war with love

Hope it heals but it never does

That's cos you at war with love

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They aint never gonna change

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

I ain't ever going to change

These battle

I guess it was the calm before the storm in family-land.

~~~~~~~~~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wuKKC3W3MQo

Just waking up in the morning
And to be well,
Quite honest with ya,
I ain't really sleep well
Ya ever feel like your train of thought's been derailed?
That's when you press on - Lee nails
Half the population's just waitin to see me fail
Yeah right, you're better off trying to freeze hell
Some of us do it for the females
And others do it for the retail

But I do it for the kids, life threw the towel in on
Every time you fall it's only making your chin strong
And I'll be in your corner like Mick, baby, 'til the end
Or when you hear a song from that big lady

[Bridge]
Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

[Verse 2]
And if I can last thirty rounds
There's no reason you should ever have your head down
Six foot five, two hundred and twenty pounds
Hailing from rock bottom, loserville, nothing town

Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast
And now I'm yelling, "Kiss my ass"
It's gonna take a couple right hooks, a few left jabs
For you to recognize you really ain't got it bad

[Bridge]
Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

Everybody put yo hands up
What we gonna do (hey!) [x4] y'all?
What we gonna do (hey!) [x3] y'all?

If you fall pick yourself up off the floor (get up)
And when your bones can't take no more (c'mon)
Just remember what you're here for
Cuz I know Imma damn sure

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

'Til the referee rings the bell
'Til both ya eyes start to swell
'Til the crowd goes home,
What we gonna do kid?

The cycle repeated
As explosions broke in the sky
All that I needed
Was the one thing I couldn't find
And you were there at the turn
Waiting to let me know

We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

The colors conflicted
As the flames, climbed into the clouds
I wanted to fix this
But couldn't stop from tearing it down
And you were there at the turn
Caught in the burning glow
And I was there at the turn
Waiting to let you know

We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

You told me yes
You held me high
And I believed when you told that lie
I played soldier, you played king
And struck me down, when I kissed that ring
You lost that right, to hold that crown
I built you up, but you let me down
So when you fall, I'll take my turn
And fan the flames
As your blazes burn

And you were there at the turn
Waiting to let me know

We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

When you fall, I'll take my turn
And fan the flames
As your blazes burn

We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

When you fall, I'll take my turn
And fan the flames
As your blazes burn

We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

Trunks: Nightmares never last mom. One day you wake up and they're gone.

*when he pops into work after a bad few weeks and it warms you entire being.

Nightmares never last mom. One day you wake up and they're gone. 

I guess this is life, so I'm finally moving on and letting go.

When I think about my life
I wonder if I will survive
To live to see 25
Or will I just fall?
Like all my friends
They just keep dying
People round me
Always crying
In this place that I like to
Call my home

But not everybody knows
That everybody goes
To a better place
And not everybody knows
That everybody could be living their last days
But the hard times will come
and we'll keep movin' on
We're moving on
Keep movin' on

Life!
Hope!
Truth!
Trust!
Faith!
Pride!
Love!
Lust!

On without the things we've lost
The things we gained 
We'll take with us

And all I've got
Are these two hands
To make myself
A better man, I
Wonder if I'll ever see the end of this
With all this rain
It just keeps falling 
On my head 
And now I'm calling
Out to someone else 
To help me make it through

But not everybody knows
That everybody goes
To a better place
And not everybody knows
That everybody could be living their last days
But the hard times will come
and we'll keep movin' on
We're moving on
Keep movin' on

Life! 
Hope!
Truth! 
Trust!
Faith! 
Pride! 
Love! 
Lust!
Pain!
Hate! 
Lies!
Guilt!
Laugh!
Cry!
Live! 
Die!

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what your given
This ain't dying!
This is living!

Said we're movin' on 
And we got nothing to prove to anyone
Cuz we'll get through
We're movin' on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and

Keep movin' on!

Life! 
Hope!
Truth! 
Trust!
Faith! 
Pride! 
Love! 
Lust!
Pain!
Hate! 
Lies!
Guilt!
Laugh!
Cry!
Live! 
Die!

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what your given
This ain't dying
This is living!!!

Understanding My Mind.

My playlist for the past few days, take what you want from it;

If I leave - ADTR
Black Cat - Mayday Parade
Just Like You - TDG
A Shot in the Dark - ADTR
In the air Tonight - Phil Collins
I'm Walking Away - Craig David
Are You Ready - TDG
You be Tails, I'll be Sonic - ADTR
Show 'Em the Ropes - ADTR
Faint - Linkin Park
From The Inside - Linkin Park
Sorrow - FlyleafHit The Floor - Linkin Park
If Looks Could Kill - ADTR
Don't Stay - Linkin Park
In Pieces - Linkin Park
Have Faith In Me - ADTR
Above and Below - The Bravery
In The End - Linkin Park
Start The Shooting - ADTR
Colder Than my Heart, If you can Imagine - ADTR2nd Sucks - ADTR

Well I could continue going through my main bands and writing down all songs that are relevant, but I need to sleep for work tomorrow. So this is all, though I'm sure I could come up with a million more too.

Trunks, Honey, please keep me breathing this next month.
Your words are the only thing stopping me <3

What a couple of days -_-

I think I need to start seeing my councellor again.
Because my anti-depressants on their own just aren't working as well anymore.
I hate being so bitter about everything.
I can't be happy for anyone else's happiness.
I can't be nice.
I can hardly even fake a smile or interest in anything these days.

Thankfully I haven't started calculating the speed/break times and angles of the wheels and strength of the tree with every tree I go past while driving again yet.
That was when I knew I was bad last time, every single tree was another way out. And I figured out the best possible way of hitting it without surviving every time.
I grew afraid of driving. Afraid that one day I'd actually drive into one of them.

And I'm growing afraid again.
Because this is what I was like before I got to that stage.
And I sure as hell do not want to go back there.
I hate being where I am enough to know that.

Now I just have to work up the courage, and money in my budget, to go back. But like hell am I going to that same chick, she pissed me off.

All I know, is that I NEED my next tattoo.
When those words are forever in my skin, I'll always have them there to keep me going if I ever get to that point again.
Now I just have to save the money and complete the design, and get it ASAP.

totally have a new obsession <3

Someday..

[Chorus]Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

[Verse 1]
They tellin' me it's all good just wait
You know you're gonna be there someday
Sippin' on Jim Beam ok
Gotta get these things one day
Till then do another line you know
Searching for that other high
Stop or I gotta steal then steal
Kill or I'm gonna be killed
I got a sack in my pocket
Conscious yellin' drop it
You know we're gonna lose it someday
And we tryin' to hold it all together but the devil is too clever so
I'm gonna die you gonna die we gonna die Someday one day I said

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on the wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

[Verse 2]
Try to lie but it ain't me Ain't me
Try to look but I can't see
Can't stop right now cause I'm too far and I can't keep goin' cause it's too hard
In the day in the night it's the same thing
On the field on the block it's the same game
On the real if you stop then it's no pain but if you can't feel pain then it's no gain
Rearrange and you change and it's all bad and you try to maintain but you fall back
And you crawl and you slip and you slide down
Wanna make it to the top better start now
So I hold my soul and I die hard
All alone in the night in the graveyard
Someday one day I'm gonna be free and they won't try to kill me for being me
Hey someday

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

If you know how this is
Gonna see it's not that easy
Don't stop get it till it's done
From where you are or have begun
I said keep on try a little harder to see everything you need to be
Believe in your dreams
That you see when you're asleep

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'



gifs totally work here ^_^

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
And I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again

I wanna be there for you,
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
The sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry, cry

I wanna be there for you,
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable thought
I love you too

I wanna be there for you,
Someone you can come to
I wanna be there for you,

And be
Someone you can come to
The love
It runs deeper than my bones
The love

I wanna be there for you.