what the fuck am I doing?

I've never felt so sober
I've never felt the low that I feel tonight
Your words made everything drag on, and on
I finally found her, and when I did I just couldn't make things right
Is this really happening, oh God I think I just ruined my life

What the fuck am I doing?
I can't tell the difference from wrong and right
I second guess my decisions
'Cause I haven't been this person in my whole life
I think I need something new here
When I keep longing for what I had
No need for second opinions
I do the best I can to ruin what I have
Come on

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
You're dying, just make up your mind

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
(Gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
Cause we're running out of time

Something just from the new year
(Hey, Hey, Hey)
It's a moment that's not as bad
It's what's a part of my vision
The optimistic me, so we can make this last but no
You ruined my favorite records
By singing them then I think of you
I just hope you remember
All of the guilt inside, and I believed in you for once

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
Your time, just make up your mind

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
(Gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
Cause we're running out of time

Just know that it kills me
When I hear anything to do with you
You will see, oh believe me
I need to be right where you are
And know that I'm leaving, leaving
And you won't hear for a year from now
And this kills me 'cause now I think that everything everything was about you

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
(Gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
Cause we're running out of time

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
Your time, just make up your mind

 and with the song I got over bold/resizing etcing it so that's my main section so yeah lol

 This is how I feel right this second

 I walk a lonely road. "Boulevard of Broken Dreams."

 I miss these thoughts. I miss having someone to like, to talk to, to be immature and silly with.
I miss having my car, guitar and campfire dreams about you, out it the outback against the base of some rocky cliff.
I wish I never gave up on you when you gave me the space you thought I needed back then. I wish I didn't misinterpret it and move on to someone else like I did. And majorly fail with him.
I just wish we could go back.

On a slightly lighter note:

I fucking love this chick's hair/attire/look/style. LOVE it!! If only I was of more a paler, more alabaster complexion I could pull off that hair.

 I don't know if this gif is gonna wokr but how cute is this?!?!??!

 I have no idea how this pic came up whilst searching "I think I just ruined my life" but it did, and it amused me and made me laugh, so have fun my pretties!

and how adorable are these puppies!!! found on google again and is on some supernatural website portraying sam and dean as the dogs I got no idea how it works but I laughed

p.s. I figured out the gifs (both dog ones) click on them and the link takes you so you can see them moving :)

oh well should probably sleep ay, night xx