Don't feel bad, keep your sadness alive..

I won't feel bad.
I am sad. I am hypocrytical. I am selfish. I am a coward. I am a bitch. I am a bad shoulder. I am a bad listener. I am depressed with massive out of control mood swings. I am a horrible person.
But I won't pretend to be happy when I'm not. I won't pretend to be none of the above because I don't believe in lying. So I won't feel bad about being me, I will continue trying to become a better person, however long it takes. But I will not feel bad about my emotions. I will keep them alive and show them.

I know this. I try to live with this. I try to change this.
It's not all that easy. And when you've been in a depressed mood all day and then a blog is all about depressed people and such, it figures that I would assume that.

I'm sorry. I'm trying the best I can. I'm sorry if it's just not good enough. I miss you.