I guess this is life, so I'm finally moving on and letting go.

When I think about my life
I wonder if I will survive
To live to see 25
Or will I just fall?
Like all my friends
They just keep dying
People round me
Always crying
In this place that I like to
Call my home

But not everybody knows
That everybody goes
To a better place
And not everybody knows
That everybody could be living their last days
But the hard times will come
and we'll keep movin' on
We're moving on
Keep movin' on

Life!
Hope!
Truth!
Trust!
Faith!
Pride!
Love!
Lust!

On without the things we've lost
The things we gained 
We'll take with us

And all I've got
Are these two hands
To make myself
A better man, I
Wonder if I'll ever see the end of this
With all this rain
It just keeps falling 
On my head 
And now I'm calling
Out to someone else 
To help me make it through

But not everybody knows
That everybody goes
To a better place
And not everybody knows
That everybody could be living their last days
But the hard times will come
and we'll keep movin' on
We're moving on
Keep movin' on

Life! 
Hope!
Truth! 
Trust!
Faith! 
Pride! 
Love! 
Lust!
Pain!
Hate! 
Lies!
Guilt!
Laugh!
Cry!
Live! 
Die!

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what your given
This ain't dying!
This is living!

Said we're movin' on 
And we got nothing to prove to anyone
Cuz we'll get through
We're movin' on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and

Keep movin' on!

Life! 
Hope!
Truth! 
Trust!
Faith! 
Pride! 
Love! 
Lust!
Pain!
Hate! 
Lies!
Guilt!
Laugh!
Cry!
Live! 
Die!

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what your given
This ain't dying
This is living!!!

Understanding My Mind.

My playlist for the past few days, take what you want from it;

If I leave - ADTR
Black Cat - Mayday Parade
Just Like You - TDG
A Shot in the Dark - ADTR
In the air Tonight - Phil Collins
I'm Walking Away - Craig David
Are You Ready - TDG
You be Tails, I'll be Sonic - ADTR
Show 'Em the Ropes - ADTR
Faint - Linkin Park
From The Inside - Linkin Park
Sorrow - FlyleafHit The Floor - Linkin Park
If Looks Could Kill - ADTR
Don't Stay - Linkin Park
In Pieces - Linkin Park
Have Faith In Me - ADTR
Above and Below - The Bravery
In The End - Linkin Park
Start The Shooting - ADTR
Colder Than my Heart, If you can Imagine - ADTR2nd Sucks - ADTR

Well I could continue going through my main bands and writing down all songs that are relevant, but I need to sleep for work tomorrow. So this is all, though I'm sure I could come up with a million more too.

Trunks, Honey, please keep me breathing this next month.
Your words are the only thing stopping me <3

What a couple of days -_-

I think I need to start seeing my councellor again.
Because my anti-depressants on their own just aren't working as well anymore.
I hate being so bitter about everything.
I can't be happy for anyone else's happiness.
I can't be nice.
I can hardly even fake a smile or interest in anything these days.

Thankfully I haven't started calculating the speed/break times and angles of the wheels and strength of the tree with every tree I go past while driving again yet.
That was when I knew I was bad last time, every single tree was another way out. And I figured out the best possible way of hitting it without surviving every time.
I grew afraid of driving. Afraid that one day I'd actually drive into one of them.

And I'm growing afraid again.
Because this is what I was like before I got to that stage.
And I sure as hell do not want to go back there.
I hate being where I am enough to know that.

Now I just have to work up the courage, and money in my budget, to go back. But like hell am I going to that same chick, she pissed me off.

All I know, is that I NEED my next tattoo.
When those words are forever in my skin, I'll always have them there to keep me going if I ever get to that point again.
Now I just have to save the money and complete the design, and get it ASAP.

totally have a new obsession <3