I miss you, I fucking love you

I can't do this again.
I can't do this again.
I can't do this again.
I can't do this again.
I don't even know what 'this' is.
But right now, my gut does not feel right. And I don't like it.
I don't even know what 'this' is.
Any of it. I don't even know the 'any'.

Few nights ago, I wrote this for my dog Gizmo, rest his awesome soul.
You would have been 16 on new year buddy, I hope you had fun barking at all the fireworks up there for me, I miss the hell out of you. It's just empty. Never had no pets. Ever. And now, that hole, well I only recently, past few months, have noticed how bad it is. Fucking love you Gizmo <3

Always in our hearts

Forever in our souls

The dearest dog of all

Our love for you still holds

We'll miss you month by month

Through every future year
The gap your loss has opened

Doesn't heal, we shed our tear

But we know that you live on

Float in the clouds and guide our way

Incessant barking echoes on

And that's the way it's going to stay

<3

I will never, ever forget you.

I love you Gizmo, miss you, you little annoying terror :') <3