Charlie is NOT a unicorn :P

I have got to stop falling in love with people on the internet -_-

Yeah Bek I blame you for my gonna be shitty legal mark lol.
That website you gave me to watch American Horror Story, well I searched through it and it's so dangerous!
Now I'm hooked into watching every episode and season of Smallville -_-

Sorry Hardy.

But really, I can't say no to hot people lol.

Thankyou, I love you all. For my friends XX

So tonight I have a lot on my mind.
A lot of things I want to say.
Many different topics, although only one serious one.
So here goes :)

Part 1:

So first of all,

No more Macca's.

Aside from drinks and ice-cream.

Nothing cooked there, ever, again.

I have learnt the same lesson far too many times and I am so sick of being sick every night I freaking eat this shit.

So from here on out, no more.

Ever.

Part 2:

This movie is fucking stuck in my head.

Mainly the song he sings, but omg it's in my head!!!

And also, HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!  hehe <3

Part 3:

So to the serious of the three topics,
I really love my friends.

Thinking about it, I'm not the loner that my brother always makes out that I am anymore.

I am surrounded by the most lovely people,
And I couldn't be more grateful.

Yeah some of you are so strange I am left speechless staring dumbly sometimes.

And you can be loud, interuptive, or get on my nerves and make me snap.

But it's what makes a friendship.

You guys keep me level.

Long-term friends.

Friends I just made on the weekend.

Those we've been through the roughest times I've had in a friendship.

Those where we don't have to talk for months, yet we're still mates and can count on each other at the drop of a hat.

I have friends that have made me love things I've never loved before.

And friends that can bring a smile to my face no matter what,

Just by being there,

Or hugging me,

Or doing something that is just so 'them' that I can't help by smile because I love you all so much.

*There are those who insult our friendship,

and can insult me or make it seem we aren't friends and muck around,

But they're some of the closest ones

I've got friends I've had for years.

And those I haven't.

A lot of you have seen me at my worst last year.

You've helped me through my toughest times and kept me going.

And now I'm seeing that it's all paying off.

Maybe it's the anti-depressents,

Maybe it's the knowledge and boost in my health,

But I don't think so.

I think it's you guys.

I know it is.

You've all brought me back up to a state where I am ok.

The average day is good now.

My only complaint is that I'm tired and that's ok.

I love it :)
I love you all, each and every single one of you,
whether we talk a lot or once every few months, you'll know if I love you,

because people know when I don't.

I want to say thankyou to you all.

For standing by me.

For forgiving me.

For coming back.

For being there.

For helping me get back to being me.

<3

One last thing, if you're reading this thinking pfft she's so into herself and pity and attention, I hate her, then guess what? I hate you too :) So piss off out of my blog if it gets under your skin as much as I do.





ok
yes I told one person you had sex
no I shouldn't have
no that person didn't tell anyone else
everyone else already thought you had anyway
so get the fuck over it
it is no excuse to vandalise my car.
nothing is an excuse for that.
next time, call me a bitch to my face. don't just write it over my car.
never touch my fucking car again or I will gut you alive.

I know I fucked up this time
Just give me one more try
I know you’ve made up your mind
So leave me here behind you

And all the things you said
Made it harder to breathe
When I was lying on the floor
I couldn’t believe you wouldn’t save me
But you blame me

You cried, the fire just died
It’s gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It’s gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It’s where we stand tonight
So far from never

I know I messed with your mind
And wasted all your precious time
The more I try, the more I find that

All the things you’ve said
Made it harder to breathe
When I was lying on the floor
I couldn’t believe you wouldn’t save me
But you blame me

You cried, the fire just died
It’s gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It’s gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It’s where we stand tonight
So far from

No one will never let you down
No one will never let you down
No one will never let you down
No one will never let you down

Cause the fire has just died
It’s gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It’s gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It’s where we stand tonight
So far from never
So far from never

You said you’d never let me down
You said you’d never let me down

I. Am. In Love.

the bravery = love

Ooowwww
Ooowwww

Sometimes I feel
Like I wanna leave this place for good
Under the ground
I'll live down there without a sound
And never hear
These hissing voices all the same
I'll disappear
Cause living makes me feel ashamed

Ooowwww
Ooowwww

I must believe
There's more above us and below
I must believe
Stranded with this bitch called hope
It keeps me here
When all I wanna do is go
It keeps me here
When all I wanna do is disappear

If this is it
When all we have and ever will
If this is it
Time is running out and standing still
I'll leave today
Cause there's nothing left to keep me here
I'll fade away
I'll turn my back and disappear

The city moves
Lunges up right from the ground
The seething Earth
It opens up and spits us out
This vicious child
Nature never wanted us
This vicious child
A cancer burning black into its heart

If this is it
When all we have and ever will
If this is it
Time is running out and standing still
I'll leave today
Cause there's nothing left to keep me here
I'll fade away
I'll turn my back and disappear

Ooowwww
Sometimes I feel
Like I wanna leave this place for good
Under the ground
I'll live down there without a sound
And never hear
These hissing voices all the same
I'll disappear
Cause living makes me feel ashamed

If this is it
When all we have and ever will
If this is it
Time is running out and standing still
I'll leave today
Cause there's nothing left to keep me here
I'll fade away
I'll turn my back and disappear
I'll turn my back and disappear

cause we're the three best friends that anyone could have

If it's what you need, go for it.

I'm here with you, however you want me to be there.

Just be safe.

Do what you need yes, but please be safe about it.

I'm always a phone call away and will come whenever you need me.

No matter the situation.

No judgement.

Just being there.

I can't wait till you're 18, you as well.

We're going to have so much fun.

Probably get in loads of crap and do stuff we normally wouldn't.

But so what.

If it's what you need, or I need, and you need, I know we will always be there for each other to just do it at the drop of a hat to take care of each other.

I love you <3

Never forget or doubt that.

even just chillin in a car all stalkerlike at a park, I still have the best time, no matter how tired and grumpy I am xx



sex.

Ok. So I'm going to talk about sex.
I hate it.

I want nothing to do with it.

Ever.

All it causes, is problems,

complications,

pain,

envy,

fights,

betrayal,

every bad feeling in the world can come from sex.

So I don't care anymore how good it might be.

How amazing it may be even if you do wait.

I'm not having it.

I'll still be normal with all my dirty mindedness and wrong jokes and all that.

But if I have to listen about people having sex?

Fuck off.

I do not want to know.

It's a stupid instinct. I hate it.

Sorry, had to angry-type while trying to sleep -_-



And I thought we were friends.

I hate finding stuff out about someone that I don't want to find out.

It completely changes your view of them

Your feelings towards them

It fucks with your head and makes you feel stabbed in the back.

Finding it out from someone else too, it makes you feel like they don't give two shits about you.

Now comes the part of trying to figure the fuck out how to get past it.

And how to act like I don't know.

Because I'm not supposed to.

The person that told me wasn't supposed to.

Just fuck.

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I. Fucking. Hate. This song.

You know yeah, you never knew why I stopped talking to you.

You never knew why I got so pissed and upset.

You never knew what you did.

Well, I never told you.

But you would have  known, because you did it.

And if you couldn't see that it was wrong and harmful to me, then I made the right choice cutting things off all those years ago.

But I finally put in the effort.

I finally swallowed my pride and put my grudge behind me.

I made the first move.

And you threw it back in my face.

You rejected it.

So fuck you.

Screw you.

Screw being civil if we run into each other.

And screw letting go of grudges of my own accord.

From now on, I am not putting in the first lot of effort in fixing a friendship.

Ever again.

I honestly don't even know why we got these.