pretty self explanatory

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what the fuck am I doing?

I've never felt so sober
I've never felt the low that I feel tonight
Your words made everything drag on, and on
I finally found her, and when I did I just couldn't make things right
Is this really happening, oh God I think I just ruined my life

What the fuck am I doing?
I can't tell the difference from wrong and right
I second guess my decisions
'Cause I haven't been this person in my whole life
I think I need something new here
When I keep longing for what I had
No need for second opinions
I do the best I can to ruin what I have
Come on

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
You're dying, just make up your mind

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
(Gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
Cause we're running out of time

Something just from the new year
(Hey, Hey, Hey)
It's a moment that's not as bad
It's what's a part of my vision
The optimistic me, so we can make this last but no
You ruined my favorite records
By singing them then I think of you
I just hope you remember
All of the guilt inside, and I believed in you for once

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
Your time, just make up your mind

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
(Gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
Cause we're running out of time

Just know that it kills me
When I hear anything to do with you
You will see, oh believe me
I need to be right where you are
And know that I'm leaving, leaving
And you won't hear for a year from now
And this kills me 'cause now I think that everything everything was about you

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
(Gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
Cause we're running out of time

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
Your time, just make up your mind

 and with the song I got over bold/resizing etcing it so that's my main section so yeah lol

 This is how I feel right this second

 I walk a lonely road. "Boulevard of Broken Dreams."

 I miss these thoughts. I miss having someone to like, to talk to, to be immature and silly with.
I miss having my car, guitar and campfire dreams about you, out it the outback against the base of some rocky cliff.
I wish I never gave up on you when you gave me the space you thought I needed back then. I wish I didn't misinterpret it and move on to someone else like I did. And majorly fail with him.
I just wish we could go back.

On a slightly lighter note:

I fucking love this chick's hair/attire/look/style. LOVE it!! If only I was of more a paler, more alabaster complexion I could pull off that hair.

 I don't know if this gif is gonna wokr but how cute is this?!?!??!

 I have no idea how this pic came up whilst searching "I think I just ruined my life" but it did, and it amused me and made me laugh, so have fun my pretties!

and how adorable are these puppies!!! found on google again and is on some supernatural website portraying sam and dean as the dogs I got no idea how it works but I laughed

p.s. I figured out the gifs (both dog ones) click on them and the link takes you so you can see them moving :)

oh well should probably sleep ay, night xx

I can't do this

omg why can't I do this?
all I can do is procrastinate, stress, break down and cry.
every fucking assessment.
why can't I break this goddamn pattern and make things easier on myself?
I might as well kiss my dreams of becoming a lawyer goodbye considering I am never going to get the marks I need in english to get into the course.
good job mind and self; you went and crushed my hopes and dreams yet again.
fuck me, myself, this person typing here now. Fuck that person.
I cannot keep doing this.
Yet I can't stop

"Go on! What are you doing? Get off the computer!"

"Wah-uh- I'm trying to sort everything out so that we don't pay as much money in the long run!""... Oh... ok then.""I don't just sit on the computer and play games. I've been sorting this out and doing my course!"

This, and shit like this, and silences stretching for days filled with animosity, is what I have to live with now.
Not even towards me.
Well, the silences laced with animosity are a lot of the time.

But this crap? This is just them.

I have no idea how I am going to survive here without murder.



http://www.barnorama.com/photos-of-unbelievable-situations/ ok so from this site and then these 3 I got from another wicked one the same one I foudn link here from but don't remember but knocke yourselves out this is whast screwed my english and bio up lol

I'm sorry mum

To my dearest mother, even though you'll never read this, I'm sorry :(
I'm sorry that he and I can't get along
and that we fight so much and have to go around the house like the other doesn't exist

I'm sorry I get so annoyed and pissed off with him and his kids
I'm sorry for causing you to be so unhappy because of this
for making you not know what to do
because you see how unhappy with this place I am
I'm sorry that I can't hold my tongue and cause fights instead
I'm sorry that I snap at your family and am rude and obnoxious
I'm sorry that I can't be the daughter you deserve

that I'm not good enough for you
and only cause you copius amounts of stress and disquiet
I'm sorry that I snap and swear at you when I'm stressed
and for the way I speak to you and treat you
I don't deserve you
I'm just really fucking sorry for the shit I put you through every single day.

And that I can't seem to right any of it, however hard I try.
I love you mum <3

the dopest on the dancefloor

This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know

Days, you say they're way too long
And your nights, you can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know, what you're doing to me?
Go ahead, what are you waiting for?

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know
Hold on

frickin love it!!!

in my mind if I ever get a tattoo I wanted to have it a browny type colour, not black, and how freaking trippy is it?!?!? found it whilst researching XD

.... was gonna kinda be like this but I have better win win plans now :)